My Testimony

When I was born, it was out of wedlock.  My mom was young and naive.  My dad was absent.  Both had substance abuse issues.  I did not think I knew Jesus.  Today, I know different.  He was always there.   He had to be.  There is no way I would have survived without Him looking out for me.  0% chance.

 

I had a crazy life.  I mean, everything you can think of, I have seen it.  I was raised by Pagans.  Lovers of mother earth.  My grandparents are great people, but not God fearing.  They were free spirits.  My mother followed horoscopes,  did tarot, claimed to be a witch, and has messed with Ouija boards.  She told me my soul mate was "the trickster".  She did tarot readings on me without my permission.  I am convinced she tried putting spells on my soulmate and myself because we went through a lot because of her.  She stayed trying to sabotage my relationship.  She hated them.  She said she didn't, but her actions said otherwise.  This is all what I know about.  There is no telling what she did in secret. I was never taught about Jesus.  I did not know what it meant to be a Christian.  I was surrounded by darkness.  The only time I was happy was when I was taken away and given to my grandparents.  They did everything to make sure I was taken care of.  They were the only glimpse of Light.  Thank you Father for them.  God bless them and show them the Light.

 

I had a really hard life.  My childhood was filled with drug addicts, domestic violence, and abuse.  Ashamed to say, so did my teenage years and early adulthood.  I do not want to go to deep into it because it is not really the point. 

 

I had a spiritual encounter with Jesus Christ.  I had taken about 15 to 20 ecstasy pills.  I did it daily.  I would go like 7 or 8 days without any sleep.  I was gone in the mind.  I was lost.  I was literally the lost sheep Jesus had to come get. 

 

I was standing in Family Dollar buying a fan because the AC went out and it was so hot, and out of nowhere I thought I was going to die.  Everything started spinning.  It was like everything froze around me and every word and sound echoed.  I was overdosing.  I could not breathe.  I was sweating.  I ran out of the line and went out into my car and I was in and out of consciousness.  I kept saying. "please hurry" out loud because the person I was with was waiting in the checkout line in Family Dollar.  I kept turning and jerking.  Straight panicking.  I have no idea how long it lasted.  It seemed like forever.  Next thing I know, something inside me said, "Jesus, please help me I am scared; If you help me I will never do these pills again!"  It was not me.  I think it was my spirit.  I did not even know to call on Jesus in my conscious mind, but somehow my subconscious knew to call out for Him.  It was the most insane thing.  Then I passed out.  I do not remember how long it took to get back home, but when I got there I walked upstairs, but it felt like I was asleep and something was moving me.  It was so strange.  I got into my room and laid on the bed and passed out feeling perfectly safe.   I heard a voice say, "I did my part child, now do yours."  No ambulance called.  I did not die.  I am telling you, Jesus Christ saved me from death that day.  Now He has a real one.  I am all about Jesus 24 hours a day.  I cannot help but praise His name.  Him, the Father, and the Spirit.  Bless them.  Please understand that me saying He is the way, the truth, and the life, is not because it is a cute quote.  I say it because I really mean it, for real.

 

When I woke up I never touched those pills again.  I repented.  I cried and yelled and prayed so hard.  He has been working on me changing me since.  Now I see He was always there.  I went through some horrific things in life and I realize now, that wasn't luck.  That was Jesus.  He had always been with me.  He had come and retrieved His lost sheep.  I am forever grateful.  I am forever His.  He loves all of us so much.  I hope you could all just open your hearts and minds and see it.  Ask Him to come into your heart.  Ask Him to reveal Himself to you.  He is real.  He is alive right now!  Turn and repent.  He deserves all of your love and attention over anything else.  I testify He is real.  He made me a better person.  He has showed me myself and we are working on me together.  Please accept Him as your Lord and Savior and witness the most beautiful peace you have ever known.  Love and Seek His Father.  May God bless the Body of Christ and may He have mercy on the unbelievers.  In Jesus name, AMEN.